Poems
by Herbert Mullin

Response
you are not paranoid
they were passive aggressive
you didn't know

you are not schitzophrenic
you suffered too many deprivations
without knowing it
you suffered too many insults
without knowing it
you suffered too many soccio-ecconomic
sabbatage ploys
without knowing it

you became incopetent
you became inefficent
without knowing it

now that you know
what should you do
what could you do

what would you do
 

The Switcheroo
He showed me everything, but I didn't see.
He knew I didn't see, and he told me not to look.
He wasn't very gentle, he wasn't very kind,
And he wants something, he's really, really mine...
You're scared too, I guess,
So you light up like a horny puss,
But it probably ain't true...
I NEED you too, I don't know why.
It was always there, but never really jelled...
So it's high, high, high, singing glory on the wind,
Yes it's true in glory land, they're cming through and
through,
One time only friend, happened to me too...
The quirk is so true, when my time is all through, the
only survivor will be,
No, not him, and not me...

A Series of Scenes
Moths at night came fluttering through the valley so fair--
Beautifull Justine, with her three dream look-alike girlfriends--
The ruff autumn season is felt as the temperature gets colder--
Wind, now, is pushing clouds that look like Doctor Storm-Maker is sending out look-outs and scouts to
survey the landscape in preparation for a "wet abundance" winter which is to follow----.

I saw the new moon of August occult Antares, Scorpius Alpha--
I saw the new moon of September occult the bottom star of the web near Antares, yet west---.
I saw the mighty pair of red tail hawks come laughing in the sunset just three hours after the 50-50 seagulls
& crows intermingled in the westward movement----.

Maturity and Immaturity
Maturity and Imaturity--
The age of reason--
Before the age of reason--
Adolesence and young adulthood--

Because his parents did not want to lose controll--
Because his parents did not teach him the facts of life--
Because his parents did not teach him how to become a man--
Because his community told his parents to teach him how to become a man--
Because his parents refused--
Because his community kept him in a state of naievity,
and gullibility and innocent ignorance as to the facts of life and manhood
 

Growing Pains
What if his parents and sister, aunts and uncles, cousins, friends and neighbors--

#1. Refused to teach him about masterbation, heterosexuality, homosexuality, bisexuality, and natural mental health--

#2. Caused him to become homophobic, heterophobic and undiferciated schitzophrenic--

#3. Committed pre-meditated 2nd degree murder by allowing him to become tricked and manipulated illegally

Conclusion--If his parents and sister, aunts and uncles, cousins, friends, and neighbors are guilty of #'s 1, 2, & 3, then how should the prison authoridy deal with his predicament
 

Remorse
I know I am guilty--
I am truthfully sorry--
I honestly appollogize--

I promise never to do it again--

I know I am suffering from a
mental illness that they call
paranoid schitzophrenia---

I am going to join the Schitsophrenia
Association of America as soon as I
find their address--

I will attend their meetings when
I am paroled----.

I will do everything I can to cure
myself of my paranoid schitzophrenia----.

I am guilty--
I appollogize--
I promise never to do it again-----